idk.

still about my sadness. and my pain was still on. but now i feel better. i can control myself and my emotions. even thought is not 100% yet. i think,thats no the point in my tears just bcs this shit problem. but,not all my problems solved. burned in my heart is still there and will always be there i think. i can't forget him. thats a hard thing for me to remove him from my mind. but i relize that i must forget him. i must......
even thought i know that i never can.


at least,i feel much better now. last night i shared all my problem to one my beloved friend. that make me feel better now. but only 65% i think. maybe keep all this in my deepest heart is the best way. lock him in my heart and make it for my memories. but.....
i do that i would notice him quietly.
oops.